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  ‘I can see you’re cross baby, but an orgasm always makes you happy and relaxed. Stop fighting me and I can help you out on both fronts.’ He caressed my insides with his fingers and the combination of that and the warm water seeping up inside me made me quiver.

  ‘Gabe stop, please stop,’ I sighed. I wanted to stay angry with him, but he was turning me on so much and he knew it.

  ‘Tell me to quit Mia and I will,’ he smiled, making me even more annoyed with him.

  ‘I already told you I wanted you to stop.’ I punched his shoulder instead, but he just laughed.

  ‘You know saying stop to me doesn’t mean you want me to. Tell me to quit baby, say those words and you know I’ll stop immediately, I’ll know you really mean it, but I don’t think you want me to stop do you?’ he asked, but I knew it was a rhetorical question. ‘Come on baby, let me help you relax,’ he murmured as he leaned in to nibble my neck. I caved, whimpering and tipped my head to the side offering myself up to him. I gasped as he bit and sucked on it and felt myself loosening up.

  ‘This isn’t fair and you know it,’ I groaned as I gripped his shoulders. He stopped kissing my neck and looked into my eyes as his fingers continued to work inside me. ‘I told you I wanted you to stop Gabe.’ He started to withdraw them and I quickly clenched my muscles around him.

  ‘Don’t lie Mia. You constantly crave me, you need me inside you as much as I need to be in there. So go on, tell me you quit, is that really what you want?’

  ‘No, but you’re such a cocky bastard I hate you so much right now,’ I snapped. I grabbed his head and pushed my lips onto his and forced my tongue into his mouth as I started to ride his hand. I had to stop kissing him and pull my head back to let out a cry as he hit my g-spot again and again.

  ‘That’s it baby, give into it you know you want to. You need me and I plan to keep it that way.’ He relaxed his grip around my waist and let me lean back further taking my weight on his one arm. He bent forwards and kissed my breasts before he started sucking my nipple.

  ‘O god, I’m coming,’ I moaned and arched my back against his arm as I climaxed milking his fingers for all they were worth. He continued to suck as my body stopped shaking and just as I thought he was going to pull his fingers out, he started again and pressed his thumb on my quivering clit. ‘Noooo, not again,’ I moaned. ‘I want you inside me.’

  ‘No,’ he mumbled.

  ‘Why not?’ I panted as I clasped his head to my breast while I circled myself around his invading digits. He pushed back against my hand to free himself.

  ‘You’re still angry with me,’ he whispered in my ear. ‘You’re only giving into your desperate need to come again, it’s not about me and I want it to be about me when I fuck you later.’ I pulled him back onto my lips, kissing him frantically as felt my climax start to build again and groaned loudly into his mouth. The thought of having him inside me again was all I needed, as I hit the crest of my orgasm I bit his lip viciously, taking out some of my anger towards him. I sucked the blood that trickled out, before releasing his head and falling forwards onto his chest and burying my face into his neck. ‘Fuck Mia that hurt,’ he muttered. He clutched me to him as I tried to calm down again.

  ‘You deserved it. You make it sound like I’m some desperate orgasm junkie,’ I said feeling hurt.

  ‘Mia,’ he sighed. ‘Do you know how much it means to me to know that I affect you as badly as you do me? There’s absolutely nothing wrong with that. You need me sexually as much as I do you and I love that about you, I love that about us.’

  ‘It’s not just about sex. You make out like I’m only after you for your dick,’ I grumbled.

  ‘I know you love me Mia, but you also love my cock just as much and trust me, I’m really happy about that.’

  ‘Yet you’re still not going to fuck me now?’ I asked leaning back and looking at him.

  ‘No, because you want sex to avoid dealing with our discussion and your anger. Right now it’s all about sex and not about me. So I’m going to take you to my bed and hold you tightly as you sleep it off. Hopefully you’ll wake up in a better mood and we can order some food and watch our movies.’ He pulled his fingers out of me and grabbed the soap and gently washed me as I closed my eyes and enjoyed it. When he was done, he pulled me back closer to him and I felt his erection, bobbing in the water, brush against my thigh.

  ‘You’re hard,’ I whispered as I reached down to grip him, but he grabbed my hand.

  ‘No. Bed.’ He pushed me down the other end of the bath and jumped out as I sat looking at him in disbelief as he wrapped a towel around himself and put out a hand and pulled me up.

  ‘But you’re hard, I need to make you come.’

  ‘I’m not keeping score Mia, it’s not about I gave you one now it’s my turn. I’ll fuck you again when it’s not just about what’s between my legs.’

  He was right, I was still wound up and angry with him and sex was a great stress reliever. He wrapped the towel around me as I sighed and my shoulders slumped in defeat. He gently rubbed me dry then threw the towel in the corner along with his and led me back into his bedroom. We climbed into bed and he set his alarm for six giving us a couple of hours to rest. He curled around me and I closed my eyes, exhausted.

  ‘Gabe,’ I whispered.

  ‘Yes?’

  ‘I didn’t mean it when I said I hated you earlier, I’m really sorry.’

  ‘I know baby.’

  ‘And it is about you, if it was just about sex I could go get that anywhere, but I don’t want to, I only want you.’

  ‘Thanks, but you’re still angry with me and that’s not how I want you. Go to sleep,’ he said as he kissed the top of my head.

  I was in the middle of a dream when I heard Gabe whispering and half opened my eyes to see him get out of bed and walk to the bathroom on his phone. I was so tired I closed them and was sure I heard him raising his voice with someone, but I was dreaming again within minutes.

  When I woke up again I was alone in the bed. I looked at the clock and it was quarter to six. I sat up and saw that he’d put one of my clean g-strings on the end of the bed, a pair of black jogging bottoms and a red long sleeved t-shirt. The joggers were way to big and even tying them I was tripping up again like last time, so I left them off and just pulled on the t-shirt, which hung off me. I went to the bathroom and brushed my teeth and gasped when I saw an enormous bruise on the side of my neck. He’d given me a love bite. I groaned, I hated them in visible places, I always thought how common girls looked with them everywhere. As I walked back through to the bedroom, he was sitting on the bed and had put on his grey joggers again and a black t-shirt.

  ‘How did you sleep?’ he smiled.

  ‘Good until I woke up and found you gone.’

  ‘I couldn’t sleep so I went to my study to sort out the films. I heard you in the bathroom.’

  ‘Who were you cross with?’

  ‘What?’

  ‘I heard you whispering on the phone earlier and you went in the bathroom and raised your voice. You sounded really cross.’

  ‘I didn’t want to wake you up so I left the room. It was nothing.’

  ‘O god has something happened with Lexi and Doug?’

  ‘No, Doug text they’re fine.’

  ‘Gabe what’s wrong you still look cross. Is it my fault?’

  ‘It’s not you baby,’ he said shaking his head as he pushed a hand through his hair. ‘It was Julie on the phone.’

  ‘Is she ok?’

  ‘Mia, I know how I’d feel if Kai was still ringing you. I’m not sure we should discuss this,’ he frowned.

  ‘You still see each other at swimming Gabe, I’m not going to get all huffy and tell you that you can’t see her or speak to her anymore. Don’t get me wrong I don’t love the idea of her being around you so much, but if you’re still friends that’s ok.’

  ‘Thanks,’ he smiled, looking at me surprised. ‘But she wants more than friendship and can’t seem to
accept it’s over.’

  ‘You’ve got to be really clear with her then, tell her that it’s friends and nothing more, or she’ll just keep getting her hopes up.’

  ‘I have been clear with her Mia, I told her it was never going to happen because I was in love with you and she flipped out on me.’

  ‘O Gabe what were you thinking?’

  ‘What?’ he said looking surprised.

  ‘You said you never told her that you loved her, after nine months together, then you go and tell her you’re in love with a girl you’ve known for 5 minutes? Someone you dumped her for?’

  ‘I thought it would help her get over it,’ he said looking confused. I looked at him amazed, could he really be that stupid when it came to women?

  ‘No, that just made it a million times worse for her, just like you did letting Kai know we’d had sex. You’ve basically just told her your relationship with her meant nothing to you.’

  ‘She knew that anyway,’ he shrugged.

  ‘O god Gabe are you really that clueless? You were with her for nine months, even setting aside the fact that you weren’t fully committed it will have meant something to her. She’ll have seen your continued attachment to her as a sign that you were committed or at least thinking about it becoming more serious, why else would you stay? No woman wants to think it’s because she’s just a regular hole to fill.’

  ‘You make it sound like I abused her Mia,’ he snapped.

  ‘Mentally you did Gabe, even if it was unintentional. You let her fall in love with you and think that maybe you’d become more when you had no intention of letting her in, just like I did with Kai. Take ownership of that and think about apologising to her because she deserves it.’

  ‘You really think she was in love with me?’ he asked in amazement.

  ‘Gabe of course she was,’ I said softly. ‘You’re an easy guy to fall in love with anyway, without the incredible sex or your dazzling good looks. She’ll have been clinging to the hope that you’d eventually fall for her too. Why did you shout at her?’

  ‘She wanted to come here and talk and I told her she couldn’t. She went mad when she realised you were at my house and I just lost my cool.’

  ‘Great, she’s going to knife me isn’t she?’

  ‘It’s me she’s mad at really Mia, not you, I guess I better think about apologising.’

  ‘Well I feel sorry for her, I don’t know how I’d react if I ever lost you, I’d be so devastated.’ I went and sat in his lap and stroked his hair and kissed him.

  ‘I told you baby I’m not going anywhere, you’re stuck with me for life.’

  ‘Even with me making you eat junk food for dinner?’

  ‘Yes, but I’m going to have to get up and have a work out tomorrow to make up for it.’

  ‘What about swimming practice?’

  ‘What about it?’

  ‘Gabe you can’t miss it again, you’ve missed the last two weeks. Don’t think I didn’t notice you and Doug skipped last weeks session on Sunday to spend it with Lexi and I.’

  ‘I’m not missing it this time, we’ve been given the day off as we did so well on Friday, so you’re stuck with me for the whole day. I’d like to get some lengths in here though if that’s ok?’

  ‘Of course it is, I don’t want to get in your way.’

  ‘You’re never in my way. Come on, we can go and settle in for the first film and then we can order the food. Do you want any wine?’

  ‘No thank you,’ I looked at him puzzled, I’d not expected him to encourage me drinking. ‘I had enough to drink last night. Do you have any coke?’

  ‘Diet coke,’ he nodded.

  ‘I’ll have juice then, I hate that diet shit,’ I grinned and he just shook his head in despair.

  We went down to the kitchen and he grabbed a glass bottle of diet coke from the fridge and poured me a tall glass of apple juice and gave me a small bar of galaxy and laughed as I smiled at him.

  ‘Mia it’s for you to eat, not for me to eat out of you this time. Here can you manage the drinks and head down, I’ll be there in a minute.’

  ‘Ok, but while we’re on the topic of eating we need to have serious words.’

  ‘About what?’

  ‘This,’ I said pointing to my neck.

  ‘What about it?’

  ‘What about it?! I hate them. Please don’t do it again, they’re common and tacky.’

  ‘It’s an expression of love,’ he shrugged.

  ‘Gabe Austin, love has nothing to do with it. It’s an expression of territorial marking and I’m not your possession. Don’t do it again please.’ I smacked his bottom really hard as I walked past and he jumped and cursed.

  ‘Damn it Mia that hurts.’

  I giggled, how could he be so big and tough and find a slap on the bottom painful? I skipped down to the cinema and climbed into the double chair on the front row and discovered that the arms of the chairs lifted up and there were recesses to stand your drinks in. I had a bite of the galaxy as I waited for him.

  ‘Ok baby, we’re good to go. I’ve loaded them and have the remote, so which do you want to want to watch first?’ he asked as he sat down next to me and put his arm around me.

  ‘Well I vote for Alan, we could do with a laugh,’ I said as snuggled into his side.

  ‘Alan it is.’ Using just the remote he dimmed the lights and turned on the screen and selected Alan Partridge from the menu. He put the remote in the arm rest and played with the chair buttons so the foot rest section came right up and he lowered us back slightly until I nodded that I was good. I jumped as the music came on, it was full surround sound and he looked at me and smiled when he saw my wide eyes and how excited I was. I grabbed his face and kissed him and ate more chocolate as it started. The 90 minute film actually took us nearly two hours as we were laughing so much. I was crying and hyperventilating and Gabe kept having to press the pause button to let me get some control back.

  ‘O god Gabe, I haven’t laughed like that for so long. Thank you.’ I threw my arms around his neck and kissed him.

  ‘You’re so easily pleased Mia,’ he grinned as he kissed me back. We lay kissing for a while and as I clutched his hair he pulled back gasping and turned up the lights. ‘You’re trying to seduce me again aren’t you?’

  ‘Honestly what other guy would complain if his girlfriend wanted sex?’

  ‘I love that you want sex all the time, but I told you that it was off the table and you’re trying to break me.’

  ‘So, even if I was I also just love kissing you even with no sex involved. We kissed for ages in the taxi last night and I really enjoyed it.’

  ‘You remember that?’ he asked astonished.

  ‘Of course I do.’

  ‘Jesus, I thought you were really pissed.’

  ‘I was.’

  ‘So how can you remember that and not remember the first night you saw me?’

  ‘Because I wasn’t just really pissed that night, I was really wasted and I’d smoked a couple of joints before we went out. I was so ill in the morning.’

  ‘Joints? Jesus Mia,’ he looked at me shocked.

  ‘It’s not like I’ve got a drug habit, it was a one off. I wanted to try it to see what the fuss was about, but I didn’t like the after effects.’

  ‘Do you have to try everything going?’ he snapped as he fixed me with another glare.

  ‘I don’t see you complaining when it comes to me being curious about trying sex things,’ I snapped back.

  ‘Fair enough, let’s not fight again,’ he sighed, ‘but I’m not happy about you doing drugs.’

  ‘It was once Gabe, I figured a smoke wasn’t going to kill me.’

  ‘You could’ve been raped if you were that stoned, that guy you were with was pawing you and you disappeared with him. I don’t want you touching anything like that again.’

  ‘Lexi was looking after me Gabe, she took me home and told me she’d told a guy to get lost. I promise to be more responsible
from now on.’

  ‘You’d better be,’ he said with a scowl. ‘I won’t stand for that sort of behaviour Mia.’

  ‘You’re so … urghhhh you’re so bossy Gabe. You don’t own me, I still get to make my own choices.’

  ‘Let’s not argue again Mia, please. I just don’t want you doing anything like that again, you’re making yourself vulnerable and I don’t like it.’

  ‘Fine,’ I sighed. I had no plans to ever do anything like that again, but he didn’t have the right to tell me what I could or couldn’t do. I’d be better fighting my corner when he was being domineering about something I really disagreed with.

  ‘Right here’s my phone, look up the pizza and I’ll ring it through. Are we sharing?’ I looked at him horrified. ‘Ok I’m taking that as a no then?’

  ‘I don’t share pizza Gabe. You share pizza and you end up still being hungry.’

  ‘We can order a large one between us.’

  ‘O Gabe you’ve so much to learn about me. I can eat three quarters of a large pizza easily and I like to keep a few slices back for breakfast.’

  ‘You’re joking right?’

  ‘No. You ring Lexi now and ask if I share pizza and she’ll laugh her socks off. It’s only like my favourite food. Ever.’

  ‘Ok,’ he laughed. ‘You can order a whole large pizza all to yourself. I’ll just have a medium.’

  ‘No way,’ I said shaking my head. ‘You have a medium and when you’re still hungry you’ll be trying to sneak a piece of mine and then it’ll get really ugly. Have a large too, if you wimp out on finishing it, so be it.’

  ‘You really think you can out eat me baby?’ he asked one eyebrow raised.

  ‘When it comes to pizza yes,’ I nodded empathically.

  ‘Ok challenge is on, two large pizza’s it is.’

  ‘And ice cream.’

  ‘No way?’ he said looking astounded.

  ‘Way,’ I nodded again.

  ‘You’re not going to tell me you eat a whole tub of that as well?’

  ‘It’s been known yes, but I’m happy to share that tonight, but I don’t do B&J’s chunky monkey.’

  ‘What the hell is B&J’s chunky monkey?’